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Krystal's avatar

Tanya, this is breath taking. Your words allowed me to be right there with you, walking along side. You intentionally held space for yourself and your reader...amazing.

Tanya Fraser's avatar

Thanks so much Krystal.

Heather McGonigal's avatar

What a beautiful and powerful piece Tanya. I would say I am still in the space of figuring it all out. And learning to accept that, not fight it...Trusting the process as it slowly unfolds everyday.

Tanya Fraser's avatar

Thank you so much, Heather, that means a lot. And yes… being in the “figuring it out” space is the work sometimes, isn’t it? Trusting the slow, weird unfolding is a brave act. I see you in it, and I’m right there too. Keep going, there’s gold in the gentle pace.

Elisha's avatar

Nice, thank you for this perspective, Tanya.

Reading this helps me to parse through why I've been craving alone time and offers a slightly healthier vantage point on what I've already been feeling, which is yearning for some simple time alone, of no work, no obligations, no dog to walk, no partner to support (struggling to finish a PhD), no garden to tend, no animals to feed ... just time alone to just be with me.

I'm turning 40, and everyone's asking how I want to celebrate, and all I really want to say is "Nothing! I just want to be alone". I just want to go on some kind of pilgrimage, away from everything.

I haven't been able to fully tap into the why behind this feeling; it's felt a bit perplexing, like I should know, but I don't, but something is calling...

But reading this is orienting Tanya. The point is to make space for the self that already exists within, who is very much alive, but maybe hasn't had the care or attention needed to grow, to flourish or presence to express fully the person that is there. What a gift that is, to just give that quieter aspect of ourselves a little more attention and air to breathe so she too can be seen, acknowledged and spoken for.

I've been reading Sharon Blackie, and I feel like this dovetails with her work. I love that's it's not so much about "finding" myself, but giving space to uncover myself. That feels true.

Nicely written, thank you.

Tanya Fraser's avatar

Thank you for this reflection, Elisha, it’s so honest and so deeply felt. That pull toward solitude sounds like wisdom. I love how you phrased it, not about finding, but uncovering. Yes to that! It takes real courage to want nothing but space, especially when the world is so noisy about more. Wishing you exactly the kind of pilgrimage your soul is asking for, whether it’s a quiet trip or simply a few uninterrupted hours of your own company. That, too, is sacred.